Wednesday, October 14, 2015
And then one day....
And then one day you realize that you've moved on. You've not just
turned the page, but started a whole new chapter. You hear yourself
laugh and you're reminded that the fear, and sadness that once haunted
you is now gone. In its place is complete forgiveness and joy. A new
thing. God has done something new. As a result, you're stronger, more
wise, and you're once again full of joy. You dance, sing to the top of
your lungs, deeply love your friends, family, care for strangers, and
love your enemies. You've found your new normal and it is beautiful, for
it was built on Him and Him alone. Thou hast taught me to say it is
well...
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Memories September 20th, 2015
As I was talking with a dear friend today, whose daughter is getting married next Friday, I advised her to relax and enjoy every moment. I told her there would be special moments that she will remember for the rest of her life.
As I said those words I realized I wanted to write down some of my amazing moments from Lindsay's wedding for my own sake. I never want to forget some of the special things that's happened the week of the wedding.
During the rehearsal, I think of my mom standing there, obviously lost about what was going on, but so proud of her gorgeous granddaughter! Lindsay was beaming in her white dress as she stared into the eyes of her future husband. My niece was the wedding coordinator. She took charge like a professional, telling the pastors, groomsmen, bridesmaids, and everyone where to stand and what to do.
After the rehearsal came the dinner at 212 Market.We all sat, talking and laughing for hours. Speeches were given. I got to meet Daniel's Aunt and Uncle who were lovely people. Then....I gave an unexpected speech! Completely impromptu. I remember as I talked, telling Daniel that I had prayed for Lindsay's future husband since I first found out I was expecting her, I glanced at the bridesmaids table. They were all in tears, Erin doing the ugly cry. haha Then we sat with Chris, Ashley, Layla, and Isla and laughed and talked for hours. I had expected it to feel awkward being alone, and me being and introvert, but there wasn't an awkward moment. It's was such a lovely evening!
Then there was the brunch, manicures and pedicures for Lindsay, the bridesmaids and I on Saturday. It was so much fun! We all laughed, took pictures, and had a lovely day together. I came out with red nail polish with glitter! So not me, but so much fun!
The next morning, I recall I had to stay in bed due to a trip to the ER the night before. I missed Lindsay getting her hair done. I got a phone call from Lindsay as soon as she left the shop saying "MOM I HATE MY HAIR!!!" She was beside herself! I jumped out of bed saying I'll be right there! That is what mom's do after all. We shove ourselves aside in a split second to run to the side of our children when they are in need. I got lost going to the venue! hahaha I didn't use my phone for directions, and it wasn't where I thought it was so it took me forever to get there. By the time I arrived, crisis solved! The bridesmaids had pitched in an fixed Lindsay's hair. Then it was time for us all to do our make up. We danced the NaeNae, laughed, and sang while getting ready. It was so much fun!
I recall Lindsay slipping into her wedding dress. Oh my! What a moment that was! She was ravishingly beautiful. Before she left for her first look with Daniel, we held each other, staring into each others eyes, whispering how much we love each other. A prayer was said, just the two of us and she was off to meet her groom. We spied from the balcony, catching a glimpses of their first look at each other, giggling like school girls.
When Lindsay returned, she undressed because she was so hot outside. hahaha was all sat in the room eating sandwiches, more laughter and giggles. Sherri came to share in the fun! Finally it was time. My son, Daniel, came to the bridal suite, we joined hands, all of us, and prayed for the future Mr and Mrs Beckler, the day, and their marriage. Then, with our hearts beating out of our chest, we took the long walk into the lobby, past the cake, decorations and food and watched our families being ushered in. One by one they paraded down the isle. Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents from all sides of the family. I was so proud that they all were there, alive and ready to watch my girl marry her groom.
Then it was our turn. Lindsay, my Daniel and I walking down the isle...we gave her to Daniel, thrilled with their love for one another. Lindsay handed me her purity ring. I wore it the rest of the night.
Grandad spoke, the Pastor Shannon, the took the Lords supper, as Casey and Kristin sang, said their vows and they were married! I remember my Daniel pulling me close with his are around me as we watched our beloved Lindsay leave us to be joined together as one with her handsome knew husbands.
After that, snapshots in my mind...Teresa Wade and her new husband beaming as they greeted us, as if it was her own daughter that got married. The first dance, breathtaking. Mingling with my friends and family. Sharing wine with Drake, sitting with the "cool people" haha from Ethos, having a talk with my old friend Bonnie Chichka, Sherri being by my side, dancing the night away, hugging Daniels family, sneaking a talk in with Daniel's cousin Sarah, delicious food, dancing with Lindsay, and then with Liddy (we didn't have a clue what we were doing but we had fun!) Grandmom joined in the dancing! haha Giggling like she does! I recall more friends and family than I could speak to, being showered with hugs, meeting Lindsay's co workers and laughing with them. Jan (Erin's mom) and Sherri dancing, neither one missing a beat! Chelsea stealing my IPhone and taking selfies of herself for me to find on my phone a few days later.
Then the fatigue, and bittersweet moments of realizing I was about to say goodbye to by beautiful daughter, Mrs Beckler. I recall my two Daniel's having a 45 minute heart to heart talk before we all left. Sparklers as the bride and groom headed for their car. One last hug, tears flowing freely as we said goodbye. All the people that stayed and cleaned up for us, each and every face that showed us the meaning of true love and friendship and family. The tears flowing as I drove home alone. Leaving on my vacation the next day alone, as the newlyweds headed to St Kits.
I am so grateful to God for each and every moment, each and every person who celebrated with us. Each text I got from David telling me I would be OK. He's such a close friend. Prayers from Aaron, my mate who lives in Australia. So many other friends continuing to pray for my kids and I as the beautiful day faded into another week. One of relaxation alone in the mountains for me. Quiet drives, bears, deer, other animals, leaves changing as the face of my family changed once again. How blessed we are to have so much love in our lives.
God has done exceedingly more than we could ask or think. To Him be all praise and glory and honor! Amen
As I said those words I realized I wanted to write down some of my amazing moments from Lindsay's wedding for my own sake. I never want to forget some of the special things that's happened the week of the wedding.
During the rehearsal, I think of my mom standing there, obviously lost about what was going on, but so proud of her gorgeous granddaughter! Lindsay was beaming in her white dress as she stared into the eyes of her future husband. My niece was the wedding coordinator. She took charge like a professional, telling the pastors, groomsmen, bridesmaids, and everyone where to stand and what to do.
After the rehearsal came the dinner at 212 Market.We all sat, talking and laughing for hours. Speeches were given. I got to meet Daniel's Aunt and Uncle who were lovely people. Then....I gave an unexpected speech! Completely impromptu. I remember as I talked, telling Daniel that I had prayed for Lindsay's future husband since I first found out I was expecting her, I glanced at the bridesmaids table. They were all in tears, Erin doing the ugly cry. haha Then we sat with Chris, Ashley, Layla, and Isla and laughed and talked for hours. I had expected it to feel awkward being alone, and me being and introvert, but there wasn't an awkward moment. It's was such a lovely evening!
Then there was the brunch, manicures and pedicures for Lindsay, the bridesmaids and I on Saturday. It was so much fun! We all laughed, took pictures, and had a lovely day together. I came out with red nail polish with glitter! So not me, but so much fun!
The next morning, I recall I had to stay in bed due to a trip to the ER the night before. I missed Lindsay getting her hair done. I got a phone call from Lindsay as soon as she left the shop saying "MOM I HATE MY HAIR!!!" She was beside herself! I jumped out of bed saying I'll be right there! That is what mom's do after all. We shove ourselves aside in a split second to run to the side of our children when they are in need. I got lost going to the venue! hahaha I didn't use my phone for directions, and it wasn't where I thought it was so it took me forever to get there. By the time I arrived, crisis solved! The bridesmaids had pitched in an fixed Lindsay's hair. Then it was time for us all to do our make up. We danced the NaeNae, laughed, and sang while getting ready. It was so much fun!
I recall Lindsay slipping into her wedding dress. Oh my! What a moment that was! She was ravishingly beautiful. Before she left for her first look with Daniel, we held each other, staring into each others eyes, whispering how much we love each other. A prayer was said, just the two of us and she was off to meet her groom. We spied from the balcony, catching a glimpses of their first look at each other, giggling like school girls.
When Lindsay returned, she undressed because she was so hot outside. hahaha was all sat in the room eating sandwiches, more laughter and giggles. Sherri came to share in the fun! Finally it was time. My son, Daniel, came to the bridal suite, we joined hands, all of us, and prayed for the future Mr and Mrs Beckler, the day, and their marriage. Then, with our hearts beating out of our chest, we took the long walk into the lobby, past the cake, decorations and food and watched our families being ushered in. One by one they paraded down the isle. Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents from all sides of the family. I was so proud that they all were there, alive and ready to watch my girl marry her groom.
Then it was our turn. Lindsay, my Daniel and I walking down the isle...we gave her to Daniel, thrilled with their love for one another. Lindsay handed me her purity ring. I wore it the rest of the night.
Grandad spoke, the Pastor Shannon, the took the Lords supper, as Casey and Kristin sang, said their vows and they were married! I remember my Daniel pulling me close with his are around me as we watched our beloved Lindsay leave us to be joined together as one with her handsome knew husbands.
After that, snapshots in my mind...Teresa Wade and her new husband beaming as they greeted us, as if it was her own daughter that got married. The first dance, breathtaking. Mingling with my friends and family. Sharing wine with Drake, sitting with the "cool people" haha from Ethos, having a talk with my old friend Bonnie Chichka, Sherri being by my side, dancing the night away, hugging Daniels family, sneaking a talk in with Daniel's cousin Sarah, delicious food, dancing with Lindsay, and then with Liddy (we didn't have a clue what we were doing but we had fun!) Grandmom joined in the dancing! haha Giggling like she does! I recall more friends and family than I could speak to, being showered with hugs, meeting Lindsay's co workers and laughing with them. Jan (Erin's mom) and Sherri dancing, neither one missing a beat! Chelsea stealing my IPhone and taking selfies of herself for me to find on my phone a few days later.
Then the fatigue, and bittersweet moments of realizing I was about to say goodbye to by beautiful daughter, Mrs Beckler. I recall my two Daniel's having a 45 minute heart to heart talk before we all left. Sparklers as the bride and groom headed for their car. One last hug, tears flowing freely as we said goodbye. All the people that stayed and cleaned up for us, each and every face that showed us the meaning of true love and friendship and family. The tears flowing as I drove home alone. Leaving on my vacation the next day alone, as the newlyweds headed to St Kits.
I am so grateful to God for each and every moment, each and every person who celebrated with us. Each text I got from David telling me I would be OK. He's such a close friend. Prayers from Aaron, my mate who lives in Australia. So many other friends continuing to pray for my kids and I as the beautiful day faded into another week. One of relaxation alone in the mountains for me. Quiet drives, bears, deer, other animals, leaves changing as the face of my family changed once again. How blessed we are to have so much love in our lives.
God has done exceedingly more than we could ask or think. To Him be all praise and glory and honor! Amen
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